CaN't ThEy SeE I'm ToRn...?

Confusion filled my life
In my smiles & tears
I do not want to pretend
That I’m not in fear

Laughter frozen up
Spirits lower down
Goals un achieved
Leaving only frown

Joy exists no longer
Happiness stay no longer
Cheerful thoughts disappear
Leaving fake laughter

I live yet I die
This is true, not a lie
People hurt, I’m thrown
Can’t they see I’m torn?