BroKEn HeaRT tO mEnd...

Along the stream under the cruel falls
Amist the thick forest my broken heart calls
Entangled in thorns bruised and worse
Yet my bitter past I never want to lose

Each time I begin to relate my story
The story full of cracks n crushes along
With flame in my gaze n Ice in my veins
Yet my heart beats warm for the life it gains

Frowning in tears I only weep to God
Noone will see this beautiful face so odd
I thought I'm real but this world made me fake
Is there a way I would live for my sake?

Wanting to escape from this dark place
Even my memories should not leave a trace
Who will admire me like a piece of art
And do the best to mend my broken heart

ThEr'S 0nLY 0Ne liFE...

There's no more my heart can take
Always a second chance I want to make
Now it has become three, if it turns four
I will go away for I cant bear more

I can't rule your life for you
The choice is yours with what you do
Inside I have but nothing left
In times of love it feels like death

I'm only human, wanting more joy
Don't treat me like I'm just a toy
I hope from now you'll think of me
Through this distance, in love's loyalty

We have one life to walk in hand
At times it's hard, at times it's grand
None is perfect from mistakes we grow
Through thick n thin, through rain and snow

The future comes, but past forgot
Dishonesty n betrayal will only rot
This is the fact I want you to see
How much in life, you mean to me!

NevEr Will I F0rget...

Last year when we had met
That's the day I never forget
The nights that we have shared
Made me learn you were rare

Very hard to beleive I met you
But it's the fact and it's true
It was love from my very end
Along with love came our passions

Helas! things took it's bend
Day by day my love was abandoned
I only survive to make you happy
But why do you make me feel crappy?

Wishing this link should go on
Although my trust for you has gone
Will I ever get over what you do?
Desperately wanting to make you true

Wretchedly I was dying that night
Yet i forgave you at your plight
Struggling with trying to forget
Because I love u the same as we met

F0r l0ve's SakE...

Tired, sick of this feeling
This dark n cruel loneliness
Can't sleep staring at the ceiling
Like a semi-dead tigress

Alive again when the phone rings
Empty smile appears on my face
But this duration is for a while
Like my heart comes back from a race

Trying hard not to weep
Fearing he'll hear my cries
Yet the tears stream down my cheek
Escaping my sorrowful eyes

On my bed is an ocean of tears
How much more should I take?
But I'd wait a thousand years
For him and for love's sake

ThE UltIMate IdeAL L0ve...

The pleasant moments we spent
It's not a phase but a legend
Little things we shared n yearned
It's the unfaded treasure we've earned

Helas! why should it change today
It has affected us in a special way
Those behaviours that arise inspite
Are what I found from your eyes

Is this one calls kismat konnection?
Strong faith of mine will have no end
Physically I may be far away
But my soul reaches you everyday

There is an echo in my heart
Constantly whispering I never forgot
My love is tattooed deep in you
As this is my ideal love honest n true

If I CoulD Go BacK....

If I could go back to my time
The innocence of my past
And I could hold it tight
The wonderful present would last

I'd cherish my every moment
Bring closer to my heart
And enjoy it to my fill
Where my happiness will never part

Laughing out my heart aloud
In the form of joy and fun
Will admire every action
Action and gestures I've done

Will treasure every ounce of life
That made me cry and smile
The efforts and pains I take
To walk an extra mile

Constructing my heartfull library
Where my feelings are expressed
That'll be my autobiography
Which I will never confess

L0ve So PuRe...

The pulse beats hard my veins
At every thought in my brain
Every single breathe I take
Results in every smile I make

Each twinkle of my eyes
Dropping each tear till I die
In every dream of my sleep
Like in spring the freshest leaves

The warm flow of my blood
From my feelings like a flood
The sound of my heart beats
Touches the depth of ocean's feet

While my soul torn in pain
With the love that I gain
The wetness remains on my cheeks
From every word my soul speaks

JuSt Y0u And Me...

Old times that it preciously used to be
Blurring surrounding except you and me
Exchanging the feelings, thoughts and words
Souls interwined with our minds so free

This vision that I wish you could see
Although you are here i miss you and me
My devotion to you made you so happy
Every word you utter is like a melody

Where have they gone those days so quick
We can talk for hours without falling sick
Topic on topic we find to speak
Even in anger we shout and shriek

Minutes and seconds ran away so fast
The only wish I have, this love should last
Will those days come as it used to be
Nothing else matters but you and me!!

mY BroKEn HeaRt....

Brutally my heart is broken
Where its shape & form is gone
It has been stamped and crushed
But the throbbing in it is on

My heart is in fragments
I tried in vain to fix it up
For the little pieces are lost
From the result of many erupts

All i ask is an ideal love
But it came as test from above
He did this to me for a reason
So Will my heart be whole again?

I see no one as my rescue
Is my sin so severe to cure
Won't God give me another chance?
Where in the end I can happily dance!!

The ReaS0n iS YoU...

Nobody is perfect here
Neither am I! why whine?
Wish i could go back to my past
And re-make everything fine

Things I never meant to do
Things I never meant to hurt you
Wish I could rewind my life
Then I could be your wife

With the pain dwelled upon me
Has affected you in some way
Now I want to hold ur tears
And live with you many years



 
When I thought I should die
That time you have passed by
This reason had put me through
And the only reason is you

My Th0rNY PatH...

This path is never ending
Paved with golden dreams
Hopes at the day's beginning
But failure has walked in!

This path has always been cruel
Where you walk with a fake smile
Searching for a place to dwell
But it's far from you for miles!

This is the challenge i face
I tried to handle it with grace
When i thought i had succeeded
The failure beat against my face

Guided by my own wisdom
To embrace everything as test
Thinking forever i will shine
Joining my star at its rest

Will the moon shine for me?

Each morning after its long night...
I'm always awaken by a fright...
Will the sun above smile at me?
or the rainbow blindfold me?

Hitting the age of mid thirties...
I still love running around trees.
But I know no joys without tears
Nor has my heart escaped from fears...

Why am i haunted by seperation?
And put me in eternal depression?
Won't roses grow along my path?
Or just thorns to tear me apart?

But not far from the madding crowd,
A voice from somewhere assuring me
That even if the sun refuses to smile,
The moon will do that for free.

Dejection

When the stars high above beat my face
I feel that sensation in my soul raised.
Thinking of my wasted number of years
That creeps in me a kind of fear.

Alone when left with my ownself
All I do is let my mind wander…
Am I a destitute soul created?
That’s the question I often ponder

Love, such a beautiful thing always
Y don’t I have in my life I yearn
Is this soul a cast-away?
The lesson I failed to learn

Is it in the corner of the creator’s mind
That I will never be ignored somewhere
One day someone will turn her head
To know I exist there.

My Crush

When the autumn wind chills my body
And my heart gets drenched
Ur thots that envelope me
The only being that God sent

Your lovely smile touches my heart
Your tiny gigglings tear me apart
Janeman, where are you?
Is our bond, a piece of art?

The assurance u feed in me
that shudders me.....no one can be
The happiness u feed in me
Well! nobody else can ever see

Will one day we'll hold hands?
And scan the whole tinsel town
I'll walk with head raised high
Owning the bond i have in thy.

4 Liners

When u feel sad & lonely,
and u dunno wat to do...
Just look down to ur heart & see
a special place i will be.


When the moon dies down n the sun begins to smile,
Call me urs & i'll call u mine...
But if the sun burns out ur skin
My kisses will penetrate u within.


Each time the sun sets red & the moon takes it turn,
my passion for u crops up & my tummy churns.
My breathe warms u up as i kiss ur neck,
my tongue explores ur lips as my fingers fumble for ur chest.


My eyes try to sleep while my heart silently weeps,
deep in my soul ur memories i keep.
In ur kisses my spirit u sweep
O my prince, in ur arms one day i'll sleep.


Is it 'kismat konnection' that i met u?
Or 'naseeb rejection' that im far away from u?
Then y my heart for u it bleeds?
When all i have is 'luv in greed'.


When u unlock the door of my heart,
u'll see the mess i left inside.
But when scan those messes in it
there's only memories i collected for u 'my pie'!


The stars hold my gaze & the moon holds my breathe,
saying that my love is not in peace.
My heart is disturbed when u stop ur smile,
Y is it that u dont get ur peace of mind?


When the stars shine bright in the middle of the night,
the cold air chills my bones as i think of u.
The thought that y is my love so weak?
To ur eyes, is it flu?


My soul is soaked by the love displayed,
my mind is drenched by the thoughts i lay.
Even if you are there & i am here,
our memories will accompany us all the way.


Cold wind penetrates inside chilling my bones,
whispering in my ear little nothing.
Straining to hear what it says
Helas! acknowledging my love within.


Twisting & turning with no sleep
million things had succeeded to replace it steep.
Wondering the reason behind that peeped
have my thoughts for u pierced me so deep?


The void in me as no reason to express
it's empty yet filled with my tears.
Every drop will tell its own story,
how they are born from cheer & fear.


The wind that teases me today,
reminding my love miles away.
Each time it blows gently my hair
longing for ur touch everyday.


Can u see the wonder?
We call "Love" beautiful
The pain it oozes out
We enjoy to the full!

Every tear-drop u cried on loneliness

Bleeds my heart for u my highness

Ur sob i hear instead of ur laugh

Rips my soul into two painful halves.

Should I die again?

If this earth is made up of clay
My world would be easy to mould
Shaping itself to any arrows pierced
No matter in whose hand it is hold

But helas! this earth is made of stone
Though seems hard from outside
Hardened by the pain n sorrows
That created by U and I

Enough of this torture
That I get from different senses
For I want to hug myself
And get rid of this living hell

Why isn’t there one soul
To show me some mercy
Are my sufferings a clown’s play
Juggling me as much as can be!

Am i the only One for You

The wonder i feel on earth
Has not stopped surprising me
The cruelty it contains within
Snatched my being without pity.

The swirl it takes my head
For a free ride without being asked
Where I see u vague before me
I wonder is it ur task?

Is it my imagination?
Y dint u stop for me?
Am I asking too much?
Just to see the love in thee.

At last I realized one thing
This world is not where I belong
Yearning to be ur own
Embraced in ur arms I feel so strong!

Desire....

My eyes wander along the path
That leaves your footprint’s marks
For they bring along my heart
To the destination full of sparks

I dinno my name sounds so pretty
Each time uttered by you
It echoes along the same path
Whenever u address me thru

Will I get more than ur utterance?
Calling Naaz does not suffice my yearn
If allowed, I will ask for more
Your love I struggled to earn

The Almighty, aware of my feelings
Each feeling I discharge for you
If my tears could tell stories
The stories of my feeling blue!

The Promise...!

U said u’ll never leave me
That is what I believe so
The promise that makes me sweat
Is it due to fear or more?

The sweat that rolls down my chest
Awaiting for u to kiss it dry
Ur kiss that chills my body
Removing the heat from inside!

Why should I sweat this way
Don’t I believe what u say?
My inner self assures me
The truth that comes what may!

Now I know why this heat envelopes me
Not of doubt in your words
But of the joy untold
That excites me beyond its worth!

I miss U!

The struggles inside my heart
Cries aloud seeking for you
The frown appears when I cry
Unashamedly admits my love

There is not one second
That goes without your thought
Is this what call love?
The battle I alone fought!

As I sit quiet when alone
My chest heaving up n down
Missing few of my heartbeats
Wetting my eyes by their own

What a life this way?
When my dreams go unnoticed
The dreams filled only with you
Crushed down by your feet

Need u always...

When will I stop crying
Each time I think of u?
My tears flow non-stop
That I myself cant control thru

The child exists inside me
Claiming for you greedily
Wanting you always beside
For me to appear with glee

The smile that transforms to tears
The moment u disappear
Like a baby claiming his toffee
Expressing his sadness so clear

Don’t ever do this to me
For I have a heart so soft
Not able to bear this torture
Like milk as pure as I got

The Waiting...

The first note i wrote
Was a poem on ‘the waiting’
Not knowing how that waiting is
Very much into me lingering!

There are two ways to see it
The good side n bad side
The fruit of that waiting
Is as sweet as a pie

But the pain clinging to it
Will never go alone
More close to the fruit
It absorbs to the inside bone

Yet, there is a joy to wait
For the one we truly love
From days, weeks and months
With the desire flying like dove!

Destination...

Every time you look at me
The silence deafens my ears
Only my gaze intertwine with yours
Awaiting this moment after years

Our gazes that speak volume
Rhythming the tune of our hearts
But when you utter a word
It seems coming from far apart

Longing for your touch
Ripened like a new fruit
The crimson appears on my cheeks
Oh! I am feeling good.

Cherishing this very moment
That life could ever give
Enjoying each passing second
On your laps I will forever live.

My loving brother...

From where u came ?
I met u by chance
The chance that stops me
To have a glance

Ur name I admire most
The outstanding name of thee
It portrays all my wishes
One of them is to own thee!

Now that u belong to me
I’ll not let u go
My love for u to see
Which will ooze for u more

The smile in ur voice
Even if it’s just a noise
The love u have for me
I would boast the world to see

The care u express out
Leave me tongue-tied
The share u reveal out
Stronger than the tide

Oh my baby, come to me
If the world sets u free
That day comes when I hold u
As tight as the roots hold the tree!

Fear

Lying on the edge of emotion
Reflecting the memories of my prince
The one and only owner
Of all my dreams that locked up within

The flow of my salty tears
Rolling down to halt on my lips
Tasting the sourness of my fear
As I count my finger tips

The fear of u away from me
Snatching the joy of my dreams
The joy of coming close to u
In my thoughts u flow like stream

Do u have the same fear I wonder?
Or is from me it abides?
For if u sense the same fear
I will shudder from this side

My angel

The breeze that brushes above u
I fear it might hurt u like blaze
For every scratch it creates
Increases the frown on my face

Don’t want even a rose to pick u
For u r my little angel
If u r bled by its thorns
Inside my heart will be torn

Holding ur face within my palms
Is what I always long for!
Will that day be within my reach?
Promise, I won’t ask for more

Wanting to protect u from any harm
Is the vow I do to myself
Not even a single grimace
Should ever cross onto ur face

I love u!

Addiction

The sweetness in ur voice i hear
Is corrupting me day by day
Addicted to that sweetness
Not missing even a single day.

Ur laughter rings my ears
Ur whisper my heart tears
Ur heavy breathe my chest bears
Ur fantasy my skin wears

The beauty in ur gaze hidden
The charm in ur look thickens
The mind remaining unread
The desires in me u fed

Waiting for the day I see u
Whether it happens or no
For I’ll expect to hear this laughter
That rings my ears and more

Dying for you!

Y do I adjust my hair?
When I know u never care
Y do I draw my eyes
When u don’t even look at me twice

The feelings that cover my heart
Waiting for u to unveil
To expose my darkest secrets
My secret stories which are real

But I wonder every second
Are my feelings cared?
For they create no impact
Tho’ u know they are always there!

Will one day u cry for me
As I cry everyday
Will one day u look at me?
And nothing beyond u could see!

Greed for You!!

The fragrance in ur breathe
Enchanting all my face
Blowing gently when u talk
Inhaling by me in slow pace.

The few drops of ur drink
Seen at the corner of ur lips
Not allowing u to wipe them off
Taste like nectar, by my lick!!

This desire is torturing me
Twisting n turning when I lay
For promising only ur love
Y do the thot of u turn me grey?

This feeling I yearn for
Makes me guilty to the core
Coz knowing I can be never urs
Y does my greed for u increase more?

My search is over!

I never expected to find
The ideal love I left behind
For it’s every girl’s fantasy
To meet the man with right mind

Taking life as given to me
Thinking the love given is the best
Helas! Deep inside me
The love I crave still rests

Exploded when unnoticed
Brings non-stop tears to my joy
Having found the bearer of it
Finally my love isn’t a toy

As alive as the red sun
Chilling like the cold moon
The child inside me erupting
Like the volcano in a noon

Mohabbatein

Dunya mein kitne hai nafretein
Phir bhi dilon mein hai chahtein
Mar bhi jaayen pyar wale
Mit bhi jaayen yaar wale
Zindha rehti hai tumhari (unki) mohabbattein !

This world containing plenty of hatred
Then also i find in hearts some love
Dying & winning in this love
Living forever in ur (his) love

The joy unfold

Each time I think of u
My head turns towards the sky
Shining blue to my gaze
Seeing ur face above so high!

A smile blooms on my lips
With happiness comes unknown
Wondering why is this reflection
The reflection of this joy unfold

Do I know the reason?
Is it b’coz I miss u so?
For every cloud passing by
Brings me a message like spy

The message with ur memories
Ur laughter that lingers my ears
The love promised by u
Which lasts for many years?

Tears

The tear drops escaping from my eyes
Rolling down my soft cheeks
Accompanying the pains they bear
That locked up within for weeks

So strange these silent tears
Multiplying as they flow
Wanting to win their races
Creating the speed as they grow

Not knowing the reason they r born
Fleeing happily from their source
Born from the painful sorrows
Reddening my eyes like rose

I find them whenever u come to mind
Not drying when wiped away
But when ur voice they hear
Where do they vanish I can’t say!

A bliss...

When the sky darkens
And the wind getting wild
Brushing the leaves from the trees
Along with my feelings of a child.

Emotionally I’m captured
And handcuffed by my fantasy
Always immersed in ur thots
Not forgetting them easily

In pain there’s a joy
Loving u seems to me a bliss
Worsened the hurt I have
Far from u is what I miss

With no regrets any day
Enticing every moment it jumps
For my search is over
Final destination has come!

Thought of u...

Don’t know the reason why
Each time I think of u
My eyes begin to blurr
Coz of the tears rolling down thru’

The image of that shining chest
Blinking my memories
Not in one place my mind rests
Like in song, running around trees

I wonder and wonder
All trivial things on earth
End up crying on my bed
Not knowing if it’s worth

Y is my heart pumping so fast?
When my blood flows slowly
My limbs getting numb
With ur thots so heavenly!

My last breathe!

Dunno if i shud trust my faith
For to me it is strong
No oceans could wash it
And it could never go wrong

The faith purer than my love
The love that contains that faith
Dominated by the only existence
The existence not for name sake

With every breathe I inhale
Saying that existence is u
For it links with my being
Whether in joy or in blue

My residing on this earth
Is only for a reason clear
Only u acknowledge of it
Will my last breathe stop, my dear!

I beleive...

I believe in my prayers
The prayers filled with u
The faith undefined
The dedication I kept thru

For the words uttered by u
Seems to scare me deep
Yet, the belief I have in Him
Cries louder even in my sleep

If ever miracles exist
Like U, I have achieved
The sunrays of my hope
Carry the message I’ve received

Not every smile is a smile
Nor my tears that flow non-stop
But ur laughter remains precious
Like a diamond on the top!

Wanting u..

Clad in the sweat of desire
Expressing u my heavy mood
With my spirit raising high
Within the emotions I brood

Closing my eyes in imagination
That paints the picture of thee
Bringing the dream before my eyes
With u tightly holding me

As my desire mounting more
Wanting u more for real
Crying aloud ur lovely name
For the scars in my heart to heal

Touching the summit of satisfaction
Panting with breathe I exhale
Opening my eyes to the reality
Craving for u, in my sad tale!

S'one is there for me...

Garland of roses surrounds my neck
With hidden thorns poking me like knife
While a false smile appear on my face
Showing dat I’m stepping into a new life

Unable to escape from this madding crowd
Mingling with an obliged desire
Trying to be everyone’s best friend
Surviving each day on the red fire!

Is my freedom snatched away?
Unknown to this childhood play
But when not a pair of arms hugging me
This, I realized the following day!

Someone pulling me from this madding crowd
Assuring me the love on earth
Easing away the sad tones on my face
There, I realized the value of this birth!

Puppet in God's hand...

Why do i plunge into this temptation?
When I get only the worse on earth
Why do Im tortured by this nightmare?
Thinking the happy dream’s my worth!

Am I a curse to this world?
Bombarded by the sorrows
Dint life teach me enuff?
Or the lessons I learned r slow?

Being once the victim to the best
Serving even my skin to kid n kin
Smiling to every odds
While dying new deaths within

Not born an orphan in this birth
Considering the dear ones beside
Wanting to abscond somewhere
But their love I fail to hide!

Am i the only one?

Am i the only one,
Who thinks of u everyday?
Am I the only one,
Who trespasses ur way?

Am I the only one,
Who dreams of u in my sleep?
Am I the only one,
Who awaits ur sweet beeps?

Am I the only one,
Who weeps for u on my bed?
Am I the only one,
Who cries till my eyes r red?

Am I the only one,
Whose heart grips with pain?
Am I the only one,
Who longs for u in vain?

When emotion flows...

Sitting alone in the dark
With a pin drop silence
The only thing echoing in my ears
That I conquered without license!

Mysteriously I carry a pride
Of owning the charm in you
The charm that impresses me,
For seven births and it’s true!

The darkness becomes heavy
By the thoughts that thicken
Making my heart pounding fast
And my emotions never end.

Wondering if u feel the same
As each second passing by
For in my heart u always remain
Till my last breathe whispers goodbye!

I will fly..

I have to pick myself up
To show the joy I have in me
Covering the leakage of my soul
The leakage of heart bleeds for thee!

Hiding that I’m fallen apart
Wounding severely to the core
With no beauty touch to patch
With no worth of my pain anymore!

Waiting for years impatiently
For a silver lining of my hope
Just a glimpse of the horizon
Showing ur smile to me in dozen

Enough of the unshed tears
Won’t let them see me cry
The promises I gave u my prince
Ur faith will make me fly!

What have I done?

After so many months
Tho’ knowing me inside out
Blames & accuses bombarding me
Chasing me all the way.

Shocked after revealing the truth
Embarrassing me crimson red
Feeling like a worn out feather
Flying in the mid summer’s day.

Have I stooped so low?
To the eyes of my beloved
Not worth even a smile
Like a puppet in the show!

Darling! What have I done?
Is loving you a crime?
Wanting to hug u to my bossom
Wanting you in the long run!

My innermost feelings...!

When i sit to pen down my thoughts
I get confused where to start
With brain crushed to extract my emotions
And the pierced feelings like darts.

As speed my memories travel
Even before the ink in my pen dries
They reach my love destination
To open the lids of your eyes

Jerking you from my dreams
Makes me vibrate from here
Whatever happens to you
From inner soul i shudder with fear

Laying down myself to sleep
With eyes wet by tears
But happy my heart feels
Like in front of me u appear!

A ray of hope...

Why is it always me?
To bear this undying pain
Does sorrow exist for free?
Or in life’s exam I failed?


Fighting through my tears
Controlling the frown on my face
Waiting for the moment to explode
Waiting the wash-out of this phase.


All the blood flow frozen
Stopping the beat of my veins
Craving to search for heaven
Tasting every drop of the rain.


Weeping morning, noon & night
Hoping from u, a sunlight
This silence is deafening
Wishing the last ray is in sight!

Come back....

Where have u gone ?
My soul is torn
Leaving me on the lurch
My heart is worn.

Have u concluded?
Ur love for me is dead
Have u decided?
It was hanging on a thread

Oh please come back
Take me wid u
Can’t bear this stab
My world is blue

Should I die crying?
Not knowing how u feel
Should I die pining?
Not knowing what is real!

U r never alone...

Never will the moon feel lonely
When all its stars r around it
Never will the sky feel lonely
When its clouds always envelope it!

The branch may bend by the wild wind
But never will its leaves dessert it
Heavy rain may wash the soil deep
But never will its rainbow call it quits!

Each lonely tear u shed from ur eyes
Has come to the lonely me
For the loneliness that made u felt
Is never alone when you are with me

It’s destined that my love which is deep
The only love I reserve for thee
The love that never leaves u alone
Born from me, God will alone see!

Naseeb!

God has created me
To be humiliated
By the one I loved
For the way im treated

Every now & then
I’m being killed
Y not shoot me once
U will be fulfilled

Alone in this world
No where to go
Being so helpless
God had chosen me so

Just like a beggar
Raising arms for help
Only to get ignored
Hated by my ownself!

My unconditional love...

I can walk on red hot coals for u
I can sleep on thorns for eternity too.
I can starve to death to see u smile
I can quench my thirst if u r fine!

But I can’t do what others do
To prove my love for u
But I have my stupid way
To make u smile everyday!

If others can bring u happiness
And carry u with joy untold
I’d die a thousand deaths
To call you as my own!

Each one’s love is her jewel
Decorating herself as she drew
My unconditional love is my asset
That I bear forever through!